why would you put yourself in that situation? why did you take my trust for granted and push it to a point where you’re no longer worthy of it? why are you still running through my mind? why now? why right before my birthday? why did you not listen to me beforehand? why do I hate you so much I wanna burn everything you ever gave me? why do I love you so much that I won’t do it? why do I wanna forgive you so badly? why won’t my pride let me do it? why did you have to disrespect me in such a way? why? fucking why?